Our agency told us, that most often than not, the birthdays of the children are unknown. Most folks out in the villages don't have a calender. Plus, Ethiopia is on a different calender than we are. They just celebrated New Years and it is now 2002.
So we were told that we could pick out our children's birthdays, for their birth certificates. Wow. What a task. Since everyone just guesses at how old they are now. Although, our litle boy's father did know how many months old he was, when he brought him to the orphanage.
Note: I'm waiting to find out if we are allowed to mention their African names on our blogs. Ethiopia has strict laws about things like that. We are not allowed to post any photos until they are legally our children. We are going to use their African names as part of their American name.
So our oldest girl's name will be Rachel ___ Hope. She is now 5. We figured she was born in 2004.
Our little girl's name will be Sarah ___ Joy. She is now 3. She was probably born in 06.
Our little boy's name will be Samuel ___ Joshua. He just turned 2. He was born in 07.
So Charlie and I sat down and prayed about what their birthdays should be. The Lord is the only one who really knows. And as we prayed the Lord brought scriptures to our minds, and I started writing them down. And as I did, I noticed a pattern. That is how we chose their birthdays.
Praying for Rachel Hope, the Lord gave us:
Genesis 29:17 RACHEL was lovely in form, and beautiful.
Jeremiah 29:11 For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you HOPE and a future.
Rachel Hope's birthday will be 04/29/04.
Praying for Sarah Joy, the Lord gave us:
Genesis 17:15 ... her name will be SARAH...
Romans 8:15 For you did not receive a spirit that makes you a slave again to fear, but you received the Spirit of Adoption. And by him we cry, "Abba, Father."
Duet. 16:15 For the LORD your God will bless you in all your harvest and in all the work of your hands, and your JOY will be complete.
Sarah Joy's birthday will be 06/15/06
Praying for Samuel Joshua, the Lord gave us:
Joshua 1:8 Do not let this Book of the Law depart from your mouth; meditate on it day and night, so that you may be careful to do everything written in it. Then you will be prosperous and successful.
Psalms 1:1-3 Blessed is the man who does not walk in the counsel of the wicked or stand in the way of sinners or sit in the seat of mockers. But his delight is in the law of the LORD, and on his law he meditates day and night. He is like a tree planted by streams of water, which yields its fruit in season and whose leaf does not wither. Whatever he does prospers.
Samuel Joshua's birthday will be 08/01/07.
We were going to make it 07/01/07, but Charlie felt like the Lord said take Joshua 1:8 and make it 8:1. So we did. Later, Charlie did some math and found out that there is exactly 40+7 days between Rachel and Sarah's birthday and 40+7 days between Sarah and Samuel's birthday.
I looked up what the numbers 40 and 7 mean in the Bible. I found out that together they the most commonly repeated numbers in the Bible.
"40, whether days, months, or years is ALWAYS a period of testing, trial, probation, or chastisement (but not judgment) and ends with a period of restoration, revival or renewal. Some examples: the Israelites wandered for 40 years; Moses was living on the mount for 40 days; the story of Jonah and Nineveh lasted 40 days; Jesus was tempted for 40 days; and there were 40 days between Jesus’ resurrection and his ascension."
"Various references in the bible point out that the number '7' signifies God’s number and Divine perfection, for He is the only One who is perfect and complete."
Isn't The Lord good?
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Labor Pains
Today I received an encouraging note from Melissa, mother of 12 children:
"Isn't it amazing what it takes to be allowed to do a simple thing like give a child a future and a loving home. I guess they understand in their own way that sacrifice and endurance prove character. It takes a lot to prove you are a trustworthy person. You would have given up a long time ago if you were not. Keep your eyes on that prize, Bonnie.
You ... are in labor!!! Maybe transition has come today!!
He's making your kids a testimony that you will all share to encourage many about the faithfulness of God!!! Each one of those documents is another stone in the altar. How big will it become is His to answer. How many will be touched by your adoption?
You are incredible!!! Keep breathing!!!"
This was a very encouraging note. I feel like I've been pregnant with these children for over 6 years! We have seen the unltrasound pictures and we are having three! Two girls and a boy! Interestingly enough, the oldest little girl is almost 6. Whew! Talk about stretch marks ...
"Isn't it amazing what it takes to be allowed to do a simple thing like give a child a future and a loving home. I guess they understand in their own way that sacrifice and endurance prove character. It takes a lot to prove you are a trustworthy person. You would have given up a long time ago if you were not. Keep your eyes on that prize, Bonnie.
You ... are in labor!!! Maybe transition has come today!!
He's making your kids a testimony that you will all share to encourage many about the faithfulness of God!!! Each one of those documents is another stone in the altar. How big will it become is His to answer. How many will be touched by your adoption?
You are incredible!!! Keep breathing!!!"
This was a very encouraging note. I feel like I've been pregnant with these children for over 6 years! We have seen the unltrasound pictures and we are having three! Two girls and a boy! Interestingly enough, the oldest little girl is almost 6. Whew! Talk about stretch marks ...
Monday, September 28, 2009
The Ark of the Covenant
Did you know that Ethiopians have believed for generation after generation that the Ark of the Covenant is in Ethiopia?
Ethiopian Christians and Jews, believe that the Ark left Jerusalem in the days of King Solomon. They believe that afer the meeting of King Solomon and the Queen of Sheba, who is from Ethiopia, (see 1 Kings 10) they had a son named Menelik. They believe that Prince Menelik returned and took the Ark to Ethiopia.
Today it is enshrined in a special treasury next to the Church of St. Mary of Zion in Axum, Ethiopia. Only a high priest has seen it and has dedicated his whole life to guard it, and upon his death, a new priest will take up his post.
I thought this was just facinating! I found some cool videos on it as well. If you are interested, follow the links to the right under "Ark of the Covenant - Digging for the Truth". You can also Google "Axum Ark of the Covenant." Very interesting!
Ethiopian Christians and Jews, believe that the Ark left Jerusalem in the days of King Solomon. They believe that afer the meeting of King Solomon and the Queen of Sheba, who is from Ethiopia, (see 1 Kings 10) they had a son named Menelik. They believe that Prince Menelik returned and took the Ark to Ethiopia.
Today it is enshrined in a special treasury next to the Church of St. Mary of Zion in Axum, Ethiopia. Only a high priest has seen it and has dedicated his whole life to guard it, and upon his death, a new priest will take up his post.
I thought this was just facinating! I found some cool videos on it as well. If you are interested, follow the links to the right under "Ark of the Covenant - Digging for the Truth". You can also Google "Axum Ark of the Covenant." Very interesting!
More Paperwork ...
Today I filled out the first Homeland Security forms, the I-600A and sent them off along with a whopping check for the form and fingerprints. Should get our Federal fingerprint appointment soon.
Finished our Education Requirements and sending off another check to our Adoption Agency.
Next I faxed a bazillion documents to our new Home Study agency to get them caught up. They are working rapidly to get our Home Study completed in record time.
Filled out forms for Child Protective Services that look back at every place and county we have ever lived in since we were 18.
Next week we have an appointment to draw blood .... just kidding.
I am tired ...
In the end, this will all be worth it!
Finished our Education Requirements and sending off another check to our Adoption Agency.
Next I faxed a bazillion documents to our new Home Study agency to get them caught up. They are working rapidly to get our Home Study completed in record time.
Filled out forms for Child Protective Services that look back at every place and county we have ever lived in since we were 18.
Next week we have an appointment to draw blood .... just kidding.
I am tired ...
In the end, this will all be worth it!
Saturday, September 26, 2009
A Double Portion
Wow! It is starting to sink in. We are going to have 6 kids! When they are all finally home, we will have 4 girls and 2 boys. Ages 11,9,7,5,3,2. We will have finally filled the Suburban. Ben will finally have his little brother.
We are entering the promised land and God is giving us a double portion.
We are entering the promised land and God is giving us a double portion.
Savior, He Can Move the Mountains ....
When our original home study agency told us they would only approve us for 2 of our 3 kids, we told them, we would have to pray about what to do next. They were asking us to choose which child to leave behind!
It took about 20 seconds to call my new friend in Dillon, the director of Global Adoptions. She said, "There are two kinds of home study agencies. There are the kind that think THEY know what is best for your family. Then, there is the kind who thinks that YOU know what is best for your family. We are that type of agency."
After all that we have gone through, they have promised us that they will RUSH our home study. We forwarded our paperwork to them and did an interview over the phone. We gave them everything they needed, so they could make an initial decision.
They called and said, "Based on what we know now, we feel confident that we can approve you for all 3 children." We still have to finish the whole homestudy, but this is excellent news!
It reminds me of a song. "Savior, He can move the mountains, my God is mighty to save, He is mighty to save ... !
It took about 20 seconds to call my new friend in Dillon, the director of Global Adoptions. She said, "There are two kinds of home study agencies. There are the kind that think THEY know what is best for your family. Then, there is the kind who thinks that YOU know what is best for your family. We are that type of agency."
After all that we have gone through, they have promised us that they will RUSH our home study. We forwarded our paperwork to them and did an interview over the phone. We gave them everything they needed, so they could make an initial decision.
They called and said, "Based on what we know now, we feel confident that we can approve you for all 3 children." We still have to finish the whole homestudy, but this is excellent news!
It reminds me of a song. "Savior, He can move the mountains, my God is mighty to save, He is mighty to save ... !
Mountains
With Adoption comes paperwork. And lots of it. Forms and more forms. For International Adoption you must create a Dossier. This is a collection of legal and original documents. It looked like a mountain.
And then there is the International Homestudy. Let's not even go there. Our local agency (who will go unnamed) was taking their own sweet time and kept giving us more and more to do before we could even get our final home visit. They became like a thorn in our side, holding us back. We needed this home study so that we could begin applying for grants to fund our adoption. And we needed to be approved for all 3 of the children we had since fallen in love with. Another mountain.
Know this ... there is an enemy. And he hates it when Christian families follow God's will. He hates it when fatherless children are adopted into loving families and are raised up in the love of the Lord.
But God has His own plans ... In June, someone told me of a pastor and his wife who lived nearby, in Dillon, MT. who had adopted 2 girls from Ethiopia. They said, "You should call them." As part of our ongoing fundraiser we went to Dillon, MT and had a booth at the fair. While I was there, I tried to found them! I spoke with Cyndi and she explained that her daughter, Becky lived in Dillon and she gave me her phone number. The more we spoke I realized this was a God thing. I began explaining to her the troubles we were having with our home study agency. Then she tells me this: She is the director of an Adoption agency! No way! Yeah ... that's what I said! Our God is so awesome. She prayed with me and then said, if they did not approve us for our 3 children, then give her a call.
The next day, her Ethiopian daughter met us at the fair. She is now 23. When she walked through the crowd, my heart started pounding. I felt like I was meeting a member of my family for the very first time. Turns out she speaks Oromigna, the same dialect that our children do. God is so awesome. By the way, our Ethiopian children don't know any English!
Last week on Wednesday, we had our final home study visit. It was the day were all had been waiting for for over 9 months! This very nice lady came to our home. She was very pleasant and kind. But we could tell that she had already made up her mind before she entered the room. As she was leaving she said, "If you were only adopting one, I would not have a problem approving you. But since you want to adopt three, I will have to talk with my supervisor." Mountain.
As soon as she left we raced to church. We arrived very late, but just in time for prayer. Our faithful friends gathered around us and prayed. Our pastor prayed with authority. When we was finished he said, "Don't get discouraged."
Noah Webster describes discouraged as: "the absence of courage." In the book of Joshua, we read over and over, "Be strong and very courageous." We started an internet prayer chain. We spent the next week fasting and praying for our 3 kids in Ethiopia. By Monday we had had enough! I called the agency and said you need to give us an answer ... today. That evening they called and told us that they would approve us for not 1 but 2 children. Mountain.
And then there is the International Homestudy. Let's not even go there. Our local agency (who will go unnamed) was taking their own sweet time and kept giving us more and more to do before we could even get our final home visit. They became like a thorn in our side, holding us back. We needed this home study so that we could begin applying for grants to fund our adoption. And we needed to be approved for all 3 of the children we had since fallen in love with. Another mountain.
Know this ... there is an enemy. And he hates it when Christian families follow God's will. He hates it when fatherless children are adopted into loving families and are raised up in the love of the Lord.
But God has His own plans ... In June, someone told me of a pastor and his wife who lived nearby, in Dillon, MT. who had adopted 2 girls from Ethiopia. They said, "You should call them." As part of our ongoing fundraiser we went to Dillon, MT and had a booth at the fair. While I was there, I tried to found them! I spoke with Cyndi and she explained that her daughter, Becky lived in Dillon and she gave me her phone number. The more we spoke I realized this was a God thing. I began explaining to her the troubles we were having with our home study agency. Then she tells me this: She is the director of an Adoption agency! No way! Yeah ... that's what I said! Our God is so awesome. She prayed with me and then said, if they did not approve us for our 3 children, then give her a call.
The next day, her Ethiopian daughter met us at the fair. She is now 23. When she walked through the crowd, my heart started pounding. I felt like I was meeting a member of my family for the very first time. Turns out she speaks Oromigna, the same dialect that our children do. God is so awesome. By the way, our Ethiopian children don't know any English!
Last week on Wednesday, we had our final home study visit. It was the day were all had been waiting for for over 9 months! This very nice lady came to our home. She was very pleasant and kind. But we could tell that she had already made up her mind before she entered the room. As she was leaving she said, "If you were only adopting one, I would not have a problem approving you. But since you want to adopt three, I will have to talk with my supervisor." Mountain.
As soon as she left we raced to church. We arrived very late, but just in time for prayer. Our faithful friends gathered around us and prayed. Our pastor prayed with authority. When we was finished he said, "Don't get discouraged."
Noah Webster describes discouraged as: "the absence of courage." In the book of Joshua, we read over and over, "Be strong and very courageous." We started an internet prayer chain. We spent the next week fasting and praying for our 3 kids in Ethiopia. By Monday we had had enough! I called the agency and said you need to give us an answer ... today. That evening they called and told us that they would approve us for not 1 but 2 children. Mountain.
Cross Over and Take the Land
Since the beginning of summer, ever since we signed up with Celebrate Children International, and began this part of the journey, we have been doing a Bible Study at church on the book of Joshua. We read repeatedly, "Be strong and very courageous."
In Joshua, the Israelites were told by God to cross over the Jordan and take the land that had been given to them as an inheritance and a promise from the Lord. He told them to trust Him and to start walking ...
They stood up and assembled themselves. They set one foot into the Jordan and the Lord pushed back the waters on all sides. Then they passed through on dry land. The Lord made a way for them when there was no way. The land was theirs, but they still had to fight to conquer it and to receive the Lord's promises for them.
Every week, the Lord spoke to us through the Book of Joshua. Encouraging us to keep walking, to keep praying, to keep trusting, to keep fighting, to be strong and very courageous.
In Joshua, the Israelites were told by God to cross over the Jordan and take the land that had been given to them as an inheritance and a promise from the Lord. He told them to trust Him and to start walking ...
They stood up and assembled themselves. They set one foot into the Jordan and the Lord pushed back the waters on all sides. Then they passed through on dry land. The Lord made a way for them when there was no way. The land was theirs, but they still had to fight to conquer it and to receive the Lord's promises for them.
Every week, the Lord spoke to us through the Book of Joshua. Encouraging us to keep walking, to keep praying, to keep trusting, to keep fighting, to be strong and very courageous.
God Opens a Door
We had always thought we would adopt a baby from Latin America. My mother is from Trinidad and so it just seemed natural to have that desire. Others said, "What about Ethiopia?" I said, "No, we really want to adopt from Latin America." But every country we looked at was a closed door. Then one day, I turned and looked, and said, "OK, what about Ethiopia?"
In June of this year, we contacted Celebrate Children International. They were the same agency we called when we were interested in adopting from Guatemala. The doors swung open so fast it almost made my head spin! I equated the feeling at the time as to being on one of those people movers in the airport. Even when we were standing still, it felt like we were moving fast!
We had talked to other agencies about Ethiopia as well, but in the end decided on Celebrate Children. Sue Hedberg and Angela Vance have been awesome! Above and beyond everything else, it is obvious that the children are their first priority. In fact, when I first called to sign up in June, Sue was in Ethiopia with the children and has been back several times.
We explained to them that we had been saving all of the money from our little business since last year, and that when our home study was completed, then we would be able to apply for Adoption Grants, in order to fund the rest. Our Social Worker at the time, told us, we only needed to tell them what country we had decided on and give them the country specific information, and then they could complete our homestudy. Celebrate Childen was more than willing to give us whatever information we needed.
They invited us to look at the Waiting Children list. And of course we looked for a little boy and a little girl, with dark skin and dark hair.
There was this one little boy. The description of him said, "...this sad little boy." He did look sad. All I wanted to do was pick him up and hug him. He was one year old at the time.
But there was no one little girl. They asked us if we would consider sibling sisters. We looked at the list and fell in love with two little sisters, ages 2 and 4.
God had at last opened a door!
In June of this year, we contacted Celebrate Children International. They were the same agency we called when we were interested in adopting from Guatemala. The doors swung open so fast it almost made my head spin! I equated the feeling at the time as to being on one of those people movers in the airport. Even when we were standing still, it felt like we were moving fast!
We had talked to other agencies about Ethiopia as well, but in the end decided on Celebrate Children. Sue Hedberg and Angela Vance have been awesome! Above and beyond everything else, it is obvious that the children are their first priority. In fact, when I first called to sign up in June, Sue was in Ethiopia with the children and has been back several times.
We explained to them that we had been saving all of the money from our little business since last year, and that when our home study was completed, then we would be able to apply for Adoption Grants, in order to fund the rest. Our Social Worker at the time, told us, we only needed to tell them what country we had decided on and give them the country specific information, and then they could complete our homestudy. Celebrate Childen was more than willing to give us whatever information we needed.
They invited us to look at the Waiting Children list. And of course we looked for a little boy and a little girl, with dark skin and dark hair.
There was this one little boy. The description of him said, "...this sad little boy." He did look sad. All I wanted to do was pick him up and hug him. He was one year old at the time.
But there was no one little girl. They asked us if we would consider sibling sisters. We looked at the list and fell in love with two little sisters, ages 2 and 4.
God had at last opened a door!
Domestic Adoption - Another Closed Door
In January 2009, we attended our first 2 day training class on Open Adoption. We had decided to adopt through the State of Montana.
In the United States birthmothers are able to choose who will be the parents for their child from a pool of selected families. We knew that God was calling us to adopt, and we knew that He could find us in a pool. But after months of training, paperwork and a home visit, our social worker and her director sat down with us and told us that because of our age and because we already had 3 children, that they did not want to put us in the pool. They said that the current trend was for birthmothers to choose young parents with no children. They were afraid we would sit in the pool forever. They suggested we adopt internationally. They suggested Ethiopia.
You are kidding me. ANOTHER CLOSED DOOR! It took a week of prayer to decide if we should even go on anymore. But we still felt the Lord leading us forward. I really felt as though He was saying, "Trust me in this. Take a step forward. I will meet you there. One step at a time."
"But the money!!! What about the money? Don't you know how expensive International Adoption is? "
He knows ...
In the United States birthmothers are able to choose who will be the parents for their child from a pool of selected families. We knew that God was calling us to adopt, and we knew that He could find us in a pool. But after months of training, paperwork and a home visit, our social worker and her director sat down with us and told us that because of our age and because we already had 3 children, that they did not want to put us in the pool. They said that the current trend was for birthmothers to choose young parents with no children. They were afraid we would sit in the pool forever. They suggested we adopt internationally. They suggested Ethiopia.
You are kidding me. ANOTHER CLOSED DOOR! It took a week of prayer to decide if we should even go on anymore. But we still felt the Lord leading us forward. I really felt as though He was saying, "Trust me in this. Take a step forward. I will meet you there. One step at a time."
"But the money!!! What about the money? Don't you know how expensive International Adoption is? "
He knows ...
Friday, September 25, 2009
Adoption Dreams
When we first got married in 1996, we knew we both wanted children. We had talked about adoption. After our frst baby was born, I thought, "Oh my gosh! How can anyone go through this twice?!"
After we had our second child, in 1999, we went to a open house about adoption from China. We had heard about the one child rule imposed by their government and felt called to check into adopting a lttle girl. We soon realized that we were over the age limit to adopt from China.
We moved to Montana in the fall of 2003. Our son Ben was almost 4. He began praying for a baby brother. I began to have this burning desire to adopt a child. I remembered the last dream I had, about the little boy and the little girl with dark skin and dark hair. I called a local agency and began to seriously look into adoption. But it was very expensive and we were just building a home and it kind of got pushed to the back burner.
In 2005, Charlie went on a mission trip to Guatemala. While he was there, he fell in love with 2 little boys. He talked to the director while he was there about the possibilitiy of adopting them. When he came home, we were on a mission to adopt those 2 little guys. We started a fundraiser, only to raise $150. We were very discouraged and gave up. The boys were later adopted by another family. Ben kept on praying.
In 2007, Charlie and I became foster parents for the first time. We would foster with hopes of adopting. We fostered a teeny little girl who had many health issues. We had her for only three months. She was recently adopted by a wonderful woman named Connie who was experienced with all of her medical needs. Connie said she had always known that she would adopt another little girl and felt that it was totally God's will.
All the while this burning desire to adopt children kept growing. I would scan the photolistings looking for my 2 children. I would cry over all the pictures of these children who so desperately needed a family. I spent a lot of time on my face before the Lord. Crying out to Him. Telling Him that if I would never have more children, then to take this desire away from me!
Then last summer, 2008, I came to my husband one last time. I told him, we HAVE to look into adoption one more time. He agreed. In July, I was at a county fair with my farmer's market business, Wild Prairie Farms, and the gal in the booth next to me told me about her 2 adopted children. That was it. I began saving my money that day for our adoption.
After we had our second child, in 1999, we went to a open house about adoption from China. We had heard about the one child rule imposed by their government and felt called to check into adopting a lttle girl. We soon realized that we were over the age limit to adopt from China.
We moved to Montana in the fall of 2003. Our son Ben was almost 4. He began praying for a baby brother. I began to have this burning desire to adopt a child. I remembered the last dream I had, about the little boy and the little girl with dark skin and dark hair. I called a local agency and began to seriously look into adoption. But it was very expensive and we were just building a home and it kind of got pushed to the back burner.
In 2005, Charlie went on a mission trip to Guatemala. While he was there, he fell in love with 2 little boys. He talked to the director while he was there about the possibilitiy of adopting them. When he came home, we were on a mission to adopt those 2 little guys. We started a fundraiser, only to raise $150. We were very discouraged and gave up. The boys were later adopted by another family. Ben kept on praying.
In 2007, Charlie and I became foster parents for the first time. We would foster with hopes of adopting. We fostered a teeny little girl who had many health issues. We had her for only three months. She was recently adopted by a wonderful woman named Connie who was experienced with all of her medical needs. Connie said she had always known that she would adopt another little girl and felt that it was totally God's will.
All the while this burning desire to adopt children kept growing. I would scan the photolistings looking for my 2 children. I would cry over all the pictures of these children who so desperately needed a family. I spent a lot of time on my face before the Lord. Crying out to Him. Telling Him that if I would never have more children, then to take this desire away from me!
Then last summer, 2008, I came to my husband one last time. I told him, we HAVE to look into adoption one more time. He agreed. In July, I was at a county fair with my farmer's market business, Wild Prairie Farms, and the gal in the booth next to me told me about her 2 adopted children. That was it. I began saving my money that day for our adoption.
Understanding God's Promise in the Midst of Sorrow
At our wedding shower, our friend Donna Retchless, remembers having a vision of us surrounded by lots of children ....
One Sunday night in 2002, I left everyone home and I went back to visit the Vancouver Vineyard during a worship night. I went up for prayer and my friend Nola Smith, waited on the Lord. Then she prayed over me and said, "God is saying, I won't give you one less or one more schilling than you need." I immediately gasped! She said, "What? What does it mean? Money?" I said, "No! Our last name is Schilling. It means I am going to have more kids!"
Little did she know, 2 weeks later I found out that I was pregnant and had been that night! With a 9 month old baby, a 2 year old and a 4 year old, this was overwhelming news! I was stressed to say the least, but soon embraced this new little one. During this time, I had another dream. I dreamt I was holding both a little boy and a little girl. They had dark skin and dark hair. We immediately thought I was having twins! We bought a used van to be able to hold us all, and got ready.
When I went in for my 10 week visit, the doctor was unable to detect a heart beat, but told me this was normal sometimes. Not to worry. But by the next week I new I was miscarrying. We lost our baby on Christmas Eve night, 2002. The next day, we buried it in a little wooden box under our forest of fir trees. Just then the snow began to fall. It felt like God's love all around me. The song came to mind "Mercy is falling, is falling all over me ..."
One Sunday night in 2002, I left everyone home and I went back to visit the Vancouver Vineyard during a worship night. I went up for prayer and my friend Nola Smith, waited on the Lord. Then she prayed over me and said, "God is saying, I won't give you one less or one more schilling than you need." I immediately gasped! She said, "What? What does it mean? Money?" I said, "No! Our last name is Schilling. It means I am going to have more kids!"
Little did she know, 2 weeks later I found out that I was pregnant and had been that night! With a 9 month old baby, a 2 year old and a 4 year old, this was overwhelming news! I was stressed to say the least, but soon embraced this new little one. During this time, I had another dream. I dreamt I was holding both a little boy and a little girl. They had dark skin and dark hair. We immediately thought I was having twins! We bought a used van to be able to hold us all, and got ready.
When I went in for my 10 week visit, the doctor was unable to detect a heart beat, but told me this was normal sometimes. Not to worry. But by the next week I new I was miscarrying. We lost our baby on Christmas Eve night, 2002. The next day, we buried it in a little wooden box under our forest of fir trees. Just then the snow began to fall. It felt like God's love all around me. The song came to mind "Mercy is falling, is falling all over me ..."
God's Plans
One day after church, friends of ours were praying for me. While I waited and listened for God's voice, I heard God say, "You are going to have a son." This was funny to me, cause Charlie and I weren't even married yet.
Charlie and I both wanted to have kids. He wanted a dozen. At that time, I thought I only wanted 2. We married in our 30's, so we got busy! It took 8 months to get pregnant the first time. Our church was in the middle of a 40 day fast. Every day I prayed to have a baby. At the end of that fast, I was pregnant. My first pregancy ended after 11 days. It was very heartbreaking. But by God's mercy, by the next month I was pregnant again.
During that time, I was having the most bizarre, vivid dreams. One time I dreamed that I had a dark haired little girl. When Bethanie Grace was born, that's exactly what she was!
Later, we tried for 7 months to get pregnant again. During that time, I had another dream, that I had a blonde baby boy! I have dark hair and so does my husband, so I thought that was a funny dream. When Benjamin David was born, he had blonde hair!
I was busy and up to my eyeballs in diapers. I had my 2 kids and I was so happy! But for about a year, I really felt the Lord hounding me. "Would you consider having one more child?" Over and over, I felt the Lord asking me this, "Just one more?" We moved out to the country and started going to a new church. I'm not kidding you, every family had like 5-11 children! I was surrounded!
Finally, I remember saying, "Yes Lord! I'll have one more child." BOOM, the very next month I was pregnant. And yes, you guessed it. I had a dream that I had another dark haired baby girl. And when Anna Faith was born that's exacly what she was!
I thought I had my mind made up, but God had His plan. Anna is such a blessing to our family, she is my most spiritual child. When she was younger, she had dreams about Jesus coming into her room at night. She lead the other children in deciding to get baptized at church when she was only 5.
God know the plans He has for us. Plans to prosper and not harm us. Plans to give us a hope and a future. All we need to do is surrender and follow Him.
Charlie and I both wanted to have kids. He wanted a dozen. At that time, I thought I only wanted 2. We married in our 30's, so we got busy! It took 8 months to get pregnant the first time. Our church was in the middle of a 40 day fast. Every day I prayed to have a baby. At the end of that fast, I was pregnant. My first pregancy ended after 11 days. It was very heartbreaking. But by God's mercy, by the next month I was pregnant again.
During that time, I was having the most bizarre, vivid dreams. One time I dreamed that I had a dark haired little girl. When Bethanie Grace was born, that's exactly what she was!
Later, we tried for 7 months to get pregnant again. During that time, I had another dream, that I had a blonde baby boy! I have dark hair and so does my husband, so I thought that was a funny dream. When Benjamin David was born, he had blonde hair!
I was busy and up to my eyeballs in diapers. I had my 2 kids and I was so happy! But for about a year, I really felt the Lord hounding me. "Would you consider having one more child?" Over and over, I felt the Lord asking me this, "Just one more?" We moved out to the country and started going to a new church. I'm not kidding you, every family had like 5-11 children! I was surrounded!
Finally, I remember saying, "Yes Lord! I'll have one more child." BOOM, the very next month I was pregnant. And yes, you guessed it. I had a dream that I had another dark haired baby girl. And when Anna Faith was born that's exacly what she was!
I thought I had my mind made up, but God had His plan. Anna is such a blessing to our family, she is my most spiritual child. When she was younger, she had dreams about Jesus coming into her room at night. She lead the other children in deciding to get baptized at church when she was only 5.
God know the plans He has for us. Plans to prosper and not harm us. Plans to give us a hope and a future. All we need to do is surrender and follow Him.
A Very Special Present
Charlie and I were both Christians attending the same church, Vineyard Christian Fellowship of Vancouver, Washington. I was the leader of a Worship Dance Team. Charlie started coming to our church. At first he kinda scared me... he was so quiet and I .... am NOT. Dec 12th, 1995 was my birthday and our church was hosting a Vineyard Worship Conference. Our dance team was there, dancing. A friend came up to me and said, "The Lord has a present for you today..." I said, "Great! It's my birthday!" She said, "It's a very special present."
Later that night we split off into groups to practice praying for one another. We were in a large group of our friends. Then the speaker, Wes Campbell said, split off into smaller groups. That left Charlie, me and my friend Lori Stock. As we were praying for Charlie, I felt this HUGE wave of love sweep over me. I felt like I was drunk! I had learned that when you feel things like that when praying, it is usually for the person you are praying for. So I said, "Wow... the Lord REALLY loves you!" Charlie told me later that he was so overcome, because he was praying about me.
A few days later Charlie invited me out to lunch. And a month later we were engaged to be married! God definately gave me a very special present that night!
Later that night we split off into groups to practice praying for one another. We were in a large group of our friends. Then the speaker, Wes Campbell said, split off into smaller groups. That left Charlie, me and my friend Lori Stock. As we were praying for Charlie, I felt this HUGE wave of love sweep over me. I felt like I was drunk! I had learned that when you feel things like that when praying, it is usually for the person you are praying for. So I said, "Wow... the Lord REALLY loves you!" Charlie told me later that he was so overcome, because he was praying about me.
A few days later Charlie invited me out to lunch. And a month later we were engaged to be married! God definately gave me a very special present that night!
Enlarging Our Tents
That scripture has always meant a lot to me. For I was that barren woman. Who married young, only to be rejected. God gave me that promise many years ago. That He was my Husband and he would never leave me or forsake me.
Long after those days, Charlie and I were married in 1996. We were blessed with 3 beautiful children. But we knew it was not enough. The Lord put a desire deep within our hearts to adopt more children. And these days He is reminding me about Isaiah 54. He is telling us to "Enlarge Our Tents."
And these days I can be heard shouting for joy and bursting into song! Unfortunately, I have also been spreading to the right and the left ...
He has given me a new promise:
"All your sons will be taught by the LORD,
and great will be your children's peace."
Praise God!
Long after those days, Charlie and I were married in 1996. We were blessed with 3 beautiful children. But we knew it was not enough. The Lord put a desire deep within our hearts to adopt more children. And these days He is reminding me about Isaiah 54. He is telling us to "Enlarge Our Tents."
And these days I can be heard shouting for joy and bursting into song! Unfortunately, I have also been spreading to the right and the left ...
He has given me a new promise:
"All your sons will be taught by the LORD,
and great will be your children's peace."
Praise God!
Isaiah 54 - The Lord's Promise
1 "Sing, O barren woman, you who never bore a child;
burst into song, shout for joy, you who were never in labor;
because more are the children of the desolate woman
than of her who has a husband," says the LORD.
2 "Enlarge the place of your tent, stretch your tent curtains wide,
do not hold back; lengthen your cords, strengthen your stakes.
3 For you will spread out to the right and to the left;
your descendants will dispossess nations
and settle in their desolate cities.
4 "Do not be afraid; you will not suffer shame.
Do not fear disgrace; you will not be humiliated.
You will forget the shame of your youth
and remember no more the reproach of your widowhood.
5 For your Maker is your husband —
the LORD Almighty is his name —
the Holy One of Israel is your Redeemer;
he is called the God of all the earth.
6 The LORD will call you back
as if you were a wife deserted and distressed in spirit —
a wife who married young, only to be rejected," says your God.
7 "For a brief moment I abandoned you,
but with deep compassion I will bring you back.
8 In a surge of anger I hid my face from you for a moment,
but with everlasting kindness I will have compassion on you,"
says the LORD your Redeemer.
13 All your sons will be taught by the LORD,
and great will be your children's peace.
17 no weapon forged against you will prevail,
and you will refute every tongue that accuses you.
This is the heritage of the servants of the LORD,
and this is their vindication from me," declares the LORD.
burst into song, shout for joy, you who were never in labor;
because more are the children of the desolate woman
than of her who has a husband," says the LORD.
2 "Enlarge the place of your tent, stretch your tent curtains wide,
do not hold back; lengthen your cords, strengthen your stakes.
3 For you will spread out to the right and to the left;
your descendants will dispossess nations
and settle in their desolate cities.
4 "Do not be afraid; you will not suffer shame.
Do not fear disgrace; you will not be humiliated.
You will forget the shame of your youth
and remember no more the reproach of your widowhood.
5 For your Maker is your husband —
the LORD Almighty is his name —
the Holy One of Israel is your Redeemer;
he is called the God of all the earth.
6 The LORD will call you back
as if you were a wife deserted and distressed in spirit —
a wife who married young, only to be rejected," says your God.
7 "For a brief moment I abandoned you,
but with deep compassion I will bring you back.
8 In a surge of anger I hid my face from you for a moment,
but with everlasting kindness I will have compassion on you,"
says the LORD your Redeemer.
13 All your sons will be taught by the LORD,
and great will be your children's peace.
17 no weapon forged against you will prevail,
and you will refute every tongue that accuses you.
This is the heritage of the servants of the LORD,
and this is their vindication from me," declares the LORD.
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